Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Chasing Happiness

Without direction, there is no life...

Since I can remember, I’ve always viewed my current position as desiring to be at the next level.  Now don’t get me wrong, the deep desire to always do better or go bigger has it’s advantages.  It keeps me accountable to never become complacent.  However, there are disadvantages.
Lately, I’ve found myself in a state of frustration.  I want to be here.  I want to be there.  I want to be doing this… just like ‘so and so’ and I’ve become unhappy.  This last month, even though I’ve remained upbeat, I’ve had a down in the dumps attitude.  At work, I haven’t been giving my all.  At the gym, I’ve been going, but not giving my whole self.  My relationships with others, ehh, they just exist.  It’s like I’ve become a shadow of a person moving and doing everything, but without passion and purpose.
It wasn’t till my recent trip to Topeka, Kansas where I had a video filming with Complete Nutrition that I was able to have some tough love thrown my way.  No one else besides my brother can do this.  So I was telling my brother about my frustration and he bluntly put it, “Why can’t you just be happy?!”  I paused for a moment and said, “I Am!”
He then spoke some of the wisest words I so badly needed to hear.
“A, no your not!  You always are looking for something bigger and better.  You can never just be happy.  You don’t sleep at night because your always stressing about small things.  You need to be thankful for what God has blessed you with.  You show God that you don’t trust Him when you are stressing and worrying and trying to make life happen.  Enjoy what He has given you for just one minute.”
All that could come out of my mouth… UGH, your right!
What was the last time I just said ‘Thank you Jesus’?  It’s been a while.
“For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord.  They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11
Leading up to now, I wouldn’t change a thing.  I’ve gone through so much transformation in body, mind, and soul.  It has built character.  Every step after this point, is planned out for His glory.  My job is to honor Him and NOT myself daily.  I need to take a step back and remind myself that the success I’ve had is only and souly because of Him.
So my success this week is found in tough love.  In the fact that taking a step back is needed for onward growth.
What about you?  Have you lost yourself in trying to achieve something?  What are you chasing?  Are you chasing your own worldly happiness?  Or are you chasing after Him and thanking Him for every speedbump in the road? 
Thought to remember… Our finish line is when we die.  Our awards await us not here on earth, but with Christ.  Maybe we all need to change how we are viewing our thoughts on success.
Success is trying, and pushing onward to glorify Him. 
What will you do to bring Honor to His Name?


  1. I love it.....and I'll tell you why. You learned something. You're the type of person that competes from within. You're always seeking challenges and setting goals. In the constant pursuit of greatness, we often forget one huge piece of the equation. We don't control our own destiny. As much as we think we do----we don't. GOD determines our destiny and destination and it's our job to find it.#purpose. We make goals and push ourselves to the limit only to find out that not until 'HE' is ready shall we get our blessing. #patience. There is absolutely nothing wrong with the pursuit of greatness in everything you do but you must be happy in your #process. Have #faith that when the time is right and you're in the right place in your life according to 'HIS' word......you'll get yours and more. Be happy in your process and find patience in order to reach your full blessing from GOD. I've been there, my friend----and I call you friend because I feel I know you through your words, and it wasn't until I got of my own way and submitted myself to HIS will i began to have patience that my drive would lead me to my purpose and passion. Keep doing you and enjoy your process.

  2. This is such a great post - I am also trying to enjoy the present and not always think about wht's going to be next. I've come so far already - I shoudl enjoy "NOW" now wantt o move on the the next big thing. Stay positive. xxx